While sitting on her bed,surrounded by books which she have to cover up but somehow was trying to run from them as much far as she can.Hence, she realised that she was AGAIN emotionally drained out.She AGAIN went through the painful yet beautiful memories of past months back in her mind!!!
Since December she secluded herself from the whole world in the process of loving someone more than her own life.She was completely changed,maybe for something better but she forgot about the reality.She forgot that due to this beautiful chronology which started one year back,she had made herself weaker.She used to be be a strong and confident girl with her own opinions,her priorities,her own ways,her own views,her own perspectives.This girl even forgot about her first love~writing!Sadly,she forgot to live her own life!
2011 had been the best year in her life.she had the time of her life.She went through everything she had ever dreamt of in life.She felt that love.She learnt how to tell how much you love someone.Being there talking to someone night and day.Being there listening to songs together on phone,telling each and every detail of her life.That feeling of being protected,being cared by someone,being loved and pampered and to mean a life for someone else.This was all which made her start believing in fairy tales and god too.(yeah,she had always been an atheist!).this was the best time she could have been through in life apart from all kind of anxieties and pressures.Winters, that were,as always the most favourite season of her life.
2012 welcomed her with a series of arguments.Still,she managed to come out of it.But,she knew that the worst is yet to come.
Autumn came bringing the fall of not only dried leaves and air but also the fall of relationships,happiness and everything she had started dreaming about.Her so called intuition was ending up in a reality.Things were slipping out of her hands like sand and she tried to hold that in her hand before it could slip.In the end,one day that so much weakened string broke apart which left her with nothing but tears,sleeplessness,sorrows and ignorance.Promises were broken.Heartbroken,she decided to do every wrong thing which her consciousness was not allowing her.Suddenly,one day with loads of guts she also decided to return back in her real life but again thinking of it made her full of more sorrows.She was surprised to see that there was no one waiting for her.Everybody has moved on in life like her.She felt more alone.Day be day the pain was overpowering her,making her more weak.She wasn't able to cope up with studies,or rather say life!Life had no meaning for her now.She almost gave up.
After days of agony and miserabilty which was being felt by her friends(rather say her sisters),she opened up in front of them.That day,she got that ray of hope back.She realised that there are people around her who like her,who are there with her whatever might happen.She started occupying herself with some or the other thing just to stay away from the void being created in her life.She learnt it wasn't anybody at fault.It had to happen.she defined all this in just one sentence-
Right person.Wrong time.
After going through a phase so detached from warmth she grappled with a heated heart.But there's also this possibility of retaining her old self while renewing certain perspectives in life, right?
And hence she started working in that direction.She started reviving things.Starting life all over again as the same independent,strong,talkative,practical yet bubbly little girl!She came back in touch with all those people whom she had really left back in my life just because of her own momentary happiness.That day onwards,she realised it may not be easy for her to fall in love because she knows she deserves the best,which is yet to come.She still sometimes undergo the same agony but this time there is no looking back.She will enjoy life and respect it.In the end she has realised that her smile is the most valuable gift on this planet that one can ever have and hence she will never let anybody else steal it from her face.
Now its her life with what she really was from the starting.She is waiting to change the statement~
Right person.Right time.
Since December she secluded herself from the whole world in the process of loving someone more than her own life.She was completely changed,maybe for something better but she forgot about the reality.She forgot that due to this beautiful chronology which started one year back,she had made herself weaker.She used to be be a strong and confident girl with her own opinions,her priorities,her own ways,her own views,her own perspectives.This girl even forgot about her first love~writing!Sadly,she forgot to live her own life!
2011 had been the best year in her life.she had the time of her life.She went through everything she had ever dreamt of in life.She felt that love.She learnt how to tell how much you love someone.Being there talking to someone night and day.Being there listening to songs together on phone,telling each and every detail of her life.That feeling of being protected,being cared by someone,being loved and pampered and to mean a life for someone else.This was all which made her start believing in fairy tales and god too.(yeah,she had always been an atheist!).this was the best time she could have been through in life apart from all kind of anxieties and pressures.Winters, that were,as always the most favourite season of her life.
2012 welcomed her with a series of arguments.Still,she managed to come out of it.But,she knew that the worst is yet to come.
Autumn came bringing the fall of not only dried leaves and air but also the fall of relationships,happiness and everything she had started dreaming about.Her so called intuition was ending up in a reality.Things were slipping out of her hands like sand and she tried to hold that in her hand before it could slip.In the end,one day that so much weakened string broke apart which left her with nothing but tears,sleeplessness,sorrows and ignorance.Promises were broken.Heartbroken,she decided to do every wrong thing which her consciousness was not allowing her.Suddenly,one day with loads of guts she also decided to return back in her real life but again thinking of it made her full of more sorrows.She was surprised to see that there was no one waiting for her.Everybody has moved on in life like her.She felt more alone.Day be day the pain was overpowering her,making her more weak.She wasn't able to cope up with studies,or rather say life!Life had no meaning for her now.She almost gave up.
After days of agony and miserabilty which was being felt by her friends(rather say her sisters),she opened up in front of them.That day,she got that ray of hope back.She realised that there are people around her who like her,who are there with her whatever might happen.She started occupying herself with some or the other thing just to stay away from the void being created in her life.She learnt it wasn't anybody at fault.It had to happen.she defined all this in just one sentence-
Right person.Wrong time.
After going through a phase so detached from warmth she grappled with a heated heart.But there's also this possibility of retaining her old self while renewing certain perspectives in life, right?
And hence she started working in that direction.She started reviving things.Starting life all over again as the same independent,strong,talkative,practical yet bubbly little girl!She came back in touch with all those people whom she had really left back in my life just because of her own momentary happiness.That day onwards,she realised it may not be easy for her to fall in love because she knows she deserves the best,which is yet to come.She still sometimes undergo the same agony but this time there is no looking back.She will enjoy life and respect it.In the end she has realised that her smile is the most valuable gift on this planet that one can ever have and hence she will never let anybody else steal it from her face.
Now its her life with what she really was from the starting.She is waiting to change the statement~
Right person.Right time.
