Smart girls are "overthinkers",the insecure ones,the different ones.They know what the real world is like.They analyze every little thing in life.why?

To avoid getting hurt.To find happiness.They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems.They think too much.They trust fewer people.Their insecurity proves their respect towards themselves.Of course they try to live away from a drama filled life.Smart girls know their worth.


Hence,from now onwards people saying that i over think.I would say,"I am proud about being an overthinker."

Posts that have been kept as a draft for a long time now!

As I am  fighting to be the upper hand in making a phone call at the midnight,yes a "birthday call",at the same time I want to dedicate this post to you Mr.anonymous.

And here i go pressing the call button,hoping that there is no one wishing you prior to my wishes!!I just pray!

HaPpIe BiRtHdAy To you!!!<3
Hope your Birthday holds in store
Happy hours that overflow
With all you're wishing for,
And hope the days that follow it
Make up a year that brings
Everything that you deserve
A million happy things!:)


By the way, I know you wont be reading this post at any cost and neither do i want you to do so.I know you dont think the way i do,nor do you care about anything related to me and you.Dont worry i am not cribbing about the fact,i have lived on with it and would do ever.I had loads of plans for this day but today i am just left with a simple blog post and a few minutes conversation,maybe.

You have been the best person i have ever met all my life up till now.I have always liked you as a person,as a friend,as a stranger and as a lover.i dislike your serious side but i love the way how you are serious about things in your life.I loved the way you used to say funny stuffs in between just to stop an argument.Trust me,they have always made me laugh though i never let you feel so.I liked you because you have been so stiff with your own morals and values and not what the world ever wanted you to be.You have been the most diffrent person,a person-honest,loyal and goal oriented!

On this day,i just wanted to tell you that there is pleothra of reasons to celebrate this(yeah,that is what i explained you an year back!)So,go out,get a break from the daily busy schedule and have fun with friends even if your family is not near you!You should be happy that you have turned 21,a responsible man indeed!From all the time i spent with you and as much i have understood you,i just wanted to tell you that you have always been the best!The best son for you father,who is always there to stand out higher than what your father expects and obviously the responsible being of the family for your mother.You have been the best brother for your sister and brother just because you care,be with them whenever they need you,call them up when they are not around at home and yeah how could i forgot how much tensed you have been just because you feel that you should be the responsible one!Indeed you have turned into a big boy and among the finest man i could ever see around.For me,you have been the best person.No one could ever be as caring as you,as adorable as you and when it comes to responsibilties...i don't need to write on that part for me!!For all those things i would just like to say-THANK YOU for being there!:)

Some years down the lane,we might not even talk,maybe not even on birthdays but still you would always live in one corner of my heart.I just want to wish the best for.I want to see you as a successful person inspite of all the odds between us!Maybe,thats how life is!Still i request you not to overlook people coming in and out of your life,sometimes, you dont even know whose worth the attention and may change your world into a better place.

Coming back to you,just be the way you have always been-frank,straightforward,honest,practical,self-motivated!The only thing i wish to be changed  in you is your anger.Try to tackle your high temper,you could be at a much better place after abandoning that charcterstic.I know you dont even need all these thougts or tips because you know what is best for you.Maybe this is the best part of your life.

Last but not the least,from this year just try to eat slowly(at a human pace) when you are hanging out with some one because who knows some of the best conversations might turn over to be the ones which took place while having lunch,dinner or coffee.Try to walk slowly when you are with a girl,its highly irritating!Get over with your love for Mohit chauhan.I know he is wonderful but there is hell lot of singers who deserved to be listened.Dream more wildly of all the crazy things you ever want to do and achieve them.Nothing can be more satisfying than geeting crazy for once.You wouldnt get that chance ever again in life!try to pen up your life for someone and for yourself.Try to love some one and lastly never break promises and comittments made to some person.

ok,enough of my shitty writing
Happieee birthday Mr.anonymous


ps-i always loved you!

pps=i might always be loving you!

To the indelible imprints,

   Flipping through the pages of the book;
   the smell of dry roses flourish every nook.
   Memories unwanted encircles my mind;
   and tears for the answers I couldn't find.

   As you scampered away with volte-face;
   I did portend my soul's stolen brace.
   I believed you were staunch;
   then how did the acrimony launch?

   You were besotted to me yesterday;
   but elusiveness is the trend for today.
   My mind and heart,still incredulous;
   but you are just so frivolous.
 

   If i would have bereft you;
   ever wondered to face fortitude within blues?
   Still,my vandalized heart beats for you;
   for those indelible imprints on the black and white hue.
   ~Prerana Singh

    



  ps-As from now onwards,i have abandoned my nickname "lil miss sunshine" to what i am in real.

The smile.

While sitting on her bed,surrounded by books which she have to cover up but somehow was trying to run from them as much far as she can.Hence, she realised that she was AGAIN emotionally drained out.She AGAIN went through the painful yet beautiful memories of past months back in her mind!!!

Since December she secluded herself from the whole world in the process of loving someone more than her own life.She was completely changed,maybe for something better but she forgot about the reality.She forgot that due to this beautiful chronology which started one year back,she had made herself weaker.She used to be be a strong and confident girl with her own opinions,her priorities,her own ways,her own views,her own perspectives.This girl even forgot about her first love~writing!Sadly,she forgot to live her own life!

2011 had been the best year in her life.she had the time of her life.She went through everything she had ever dreamt of in life.She felt that love.She learnt how to tell how much you love someone.Being there talking to someone night and day.Being there listening to songs together on phone,telling each and every detail of her life.That feeling of being protected,being cared by someone,being loved and pampered and to mean a life for someone else.This was all which made her start believing in fairy tales and god too.(yeah,she had always been an atheist!).this was the best time she could have been through in life apart from all kind of anxieties and pressures.Winters, that were,as always the most favourite season of her life.

2012 welcomed her with a series of arguments.Still,she managed to come out of it.But,she knew that the worst is yet to come.

Autumn came bringing the fall of not only dried leaves and air but also the fall of relationships,happiness and everything she had started dreaming about.Her so called intuition was ending up in a reality.Things were slipping out of her hands like sand and she tried to hold that in her hand before it could slip.In the end,one day that so much weakened string broke apart which left her with nothing but tears,sleeplessness,sorrows and ignorance.Promises were broken.Heartbroken,she decided to do every wrong thing which her consciousness was not allowing her.Suddenly,one day with loads of guts she also decided to return back in her real life but again thinking of it made her full of more sorrows.She was surprised to see that there was no one waiting for her.Everybody has moved on in life like her.She felt more alone.Day be day the pain was overpowering her,making her more weak.She wasn't able to cope up with studies,or rather say life!Life had no meaning for her now.She almost gave up.

After days of agony and miserabilty which was being felt by her friends(rather say her sisters),she opened up in front of them.That day,she got that ray of hope back.She realised that there are people around her who like her,who are there with her whatever might happen.She started occupying herself with some or the other thing just to stay away from the void being created in her life.She learnt it wasn't anybody at fault.It had to happen.she defined all this in just one sentence-

Right person.Wrong time.

 After going through a phase so detached from warmth she grappled with a heated heart.But there's also this possibility of retaining her old self while renewing certain perspectives in life, right?

And hence she started working in that direction.She started reviving things.Starting life all over again as the same independent,strong,talkative,practical yet bubbly little girl!She came back in touch with all those people whom she had really left back in my life just because of her own momentary happiness.That day onwards,she realised it may not be easy for her to fall in love because she knows she deserves the best,which is yet to come.She still sometimes undergo the same agony but this time there is no looking back.She will enjoy life and respect it.In the end she has realised that her smile is the most valuable gift on this planet that one can ever have and hence she will never let anybody else steal it from her face.
Now its her life with what she really was from the starting.She is waiting to change the statement~


Right person.Right time.