Acceptance.

Its time that I accept things.Things bothering me,feeling bothering me,people bothering me.I had in mind that things can go on like they are and I just need to go with the flow.But,after a lot happening around,lot of changes around I feel its time to put my foot down.

I will speak this time.I will speak my heart out.I feel this is the time when I need to accept few things and let others know so that they can accept it.Its better to stay in a good long-lasting friendship by telling people the truth.My reactions has not been the best and I could not justify them yet.This time I will be straight with words I wanted to speak for long but did not have the courage to.It needs a lot of guts but I guess that is the only way I can make things right and make people realize why insecurity has trodden upon my mind.

 I hope this makes things fine between us,if not the best.

The fact that I might not be here after maybe 6-7 months,maybe(I hope it happens) is already making me sad.I want to move up in life,do the best I should but something is pulling me back.Its you.The idea of you not being around all the time makes me sad.I had the best time of my life and had the best lessons in Hyderabad.I wish things would go on like this but everybody has to move on and hence I have to accept it.I just wish you be like what you are after all these separations.

*I miss being with you and talking to you everyday,any day.I miss talking to you about silly things and laughing my heart out.I miss talking about every minute detail starting from dinner plans to big tragedies in life.I miss hanging out with you or hanging around you.*

And when the skies have cleared!

I feel good.I feel relaxed.I feel happy.

It takes a lot of courage to go and talk to a person about things you have been silent about.But,the courage is worth it.Had I not fought more and more with my friend.We would have never realized the importance of this whole thing.

What came as something I was thinking is way too shallow came out to be quite normal for a human being.The weird part is that we both were going through the same phase.We both were feeling neglected by each other.This was the best example of being misunderstood in all my life.We were ignoring each other because we thought that we don't want to talk to each other.

We made amends to improve ourselves.Not to hide things.Just talk freely.

Now I am sitting at my friends place,we have been chatting day and night from a week and it feels way too good.It feels that a new bond has developed.We are shouting,laughing,poking each other,making fun of each other,confessing things,talking about stupid things,serious things and what not.

It feels to good to be with you my dear friend.